In the past I’ve been militant about my goals. I’ve set my aim high and I’ve worked my ass off to achieve them – and in the process worn myself out and gotten all stressed when I didn’t achieve.
In more recent weeks, I’ve been lenient. I’ve lightened up on my ‘goal’s, taken to not expecting so much of myself, not laying on the pressure so thick and taking time for myself when I needed it.
This has led to an almost catastrophic drop in productivity.
I might be feeling more chilled out, but I’m certainly not making anywhere near the progress I would like to, which in turn irritates me – which I must add, is almost as bad as being worn out – either way I’m grumpy and unpleasant at times.
So what am I going to do? Can I really find a way to balance out these two extremes that I’ve tried out so far? Can Cassie do things in moderation? That is probably the more prominent question.
I can try… moderation is one of those lessons that I’m taking a really long time to learn. I should know better by now.
So, what’s the plan? I’m not entirely sure. If you have any ideas, feel free to leave a comment!
In the meantime, I’m going to work on editing/fixing up one story a day for the Collection – which means I’ll be done by Friday.
I’m going to try and write 500 words a day on TCM so that I can reconnect with the story and start writing on a daily basis again.
And finally, I’m going to read through and make changes on 5 pages of Lifelines.
I think this is a manageable list and means that I’ll be making progress in both the areas I want to – and I’ll have the Collection stuff done before the weekend, after which I can step up the writing a little bit, building it up to around 1,000 words a day by the start of June.
Wish me luck! At this point, that’s more progress than I’ve been making lately. I really think I need a list to work from, a list of things I can do daily, rather than a list of the things I can only do on a really good day.