What do you mean it’s only the 5th?

I almost fell off the wagon yesterday, the writing one that is. I was tired, I still am tired… totally frustrated by the lack of time in my day for writing, by many other little things that I’m not going to bitch about here, and life in general that I almost let it get to me. It would have been so easy to say ‘stuff it’ and just go to bed, but I didn’t. I got my words out, passed 8K, and am still feeling really good about the story.

Considering I went into the month exhausted, I should cut myself a little slack. Part of my brain is going – see, writing IS exhausting – while the rest of it is going – dude, you were already tired, you have a teething baby and an incredibly grumpy four year old, not to mention all the house stuff – gee just thinking about it makes me feel tired.

So it’s great that I don’t have to think about the novel huh? I’m spending a lot of time not even consciously considering the next steps it will take. I’m sure that it’s all simmering below the surface, but it’s lovely that I don’t have to spend time deliberating over what will happen next. I’ve got complete faith in myself, and in the story.

Which is a really strange but beautiful place to be in. Maybe it means I’ve finally hit a point in my writing where I can trust myself enough to loosen the reins a little. I’ve always found that when I’m trying hard to make a story a certain way I end up failing, but when I do manage to step back a little and let the story evolve it takes on a life of its own.

Growth, it’s a wonderful thing.

Anyways… am now 8k into the novel, will hit 10k at some point today which is pretty exciting. But for now I better go and get the girls ready, we’re visiting a friend this morning and thank goodness because I’m completely over the grumps this morning and at least Ivy can direct them at someone else for a little while!


9 thoughts on “What do you mean it’s only the 5th?”

  1. When I woke up this morning and saw your word count, it was so inspiring for me (I’m still a bit behind, and relate to your busier-than-expected week…)! Don’t be too hard on yourself, you’re doing a great job.

    In regards to your loosening the reins and trusting yourself, that is a “strange and beautiful place to be in.” I feel the same way – I have this underlying peace about the direction the book will take, but I’m just focusing on getting into each scene as it comes. It’s quite fun, and I’m disappointed my day has been eaten up with some frustrating, unavoidable distractions that kept me from doing more writing on it. There are still a few free hours left in the day, hopefully I can put them to good use.

    1. I’m glad I was able to inspire a little bit! I know you’ll catch up, some weeks are just easier than others huh?
      Awesome to hear you’re at the same place with your writing! So nice to have that peace about the process šŸ™‚ Hope the rest of the night goes well for you!

  2. I can certainly sympathise on the tiredness front. It seems that always get sick just as my toddler gets better and while it’s nice to see him bouncing around again, I am so exhausted that it’s tempting to just crash out in any free time rather than write.

    It’s awesome that you can see your own progress and growth as a writer.

    1. Lol I know exactly how that feels! I’m always the last to get sick, by which time I’m tired out from looking after everyone else anyways… Hope your nano is going well šŸ™‚

  3. You know, I still think it’s about making writing a priority… Hear me out, ok? You had time for editing and things like that in October, but November is all about writing – specifically, YOUR writing. Just because it’s not for someone else doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be doing it. Pace yourself. Don’t burn yourself out because that would just be a total misery.

    1. It is about making writing a priority, I’m finding the time, even if it’s not when I would like it to be. And don’t worry! I won’t be burning out from the writing, just from life in general šŸ˜‰

  4. Your growth is making my growth envious.

    Kudos on your word count! I’m hoping to hit 10k today. Wanted to last night, but I, too, was exhausted. I have a 2 year old who JUST came home from daddy’s two days ago & we’re still readjusting to “life with rules.” It’ll take it out of you.

    Good luck today! (tonight?)

    1. Oh good luck with the readjustment! We used to have to do that every two weeks after Ivy had spent a weekend with her maternal grandmother (with whom she used to live before I came into her and her Dad’s life anyway). They’d feed her up on all junk food, let her stay up horribly late. We’d pick her up on Sunday evening and she would crash out early then be a complete menace for all of Monday and half of Tuesday while she detoxed from the sugar high and got back into routine. It’s never fun, so I hope you don’t have many more days until she kicks back into the swing of life at home. *hugs*

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