Ug, maybe I can’t do it

NaNoWriMo that is. I’ve totally fallen off the wagon, writing only one day in the last week! Everything is messy here, everyone has been sick and I’m so tired, most of the weekend was spent out of the house and there just seems to be no time at all.

Or rather, when the baby sleeps, there are other demands on my time.

I do want to write, and I intend to get back into it today, but I think I’m officially declaring that ‘winning’ NaNoWriMo is no longer my intention. I’m not going to kill myself to reach the 50,000 word mark. Instead I’m just going to enjoy writing as much as I can, when I do get the chance.

And sleep when I need to.

I’ve noticed over this last week that I’ve been feeling more introverted. I’m using the net less, blogging less, checking into the various forums I’m a member of less, I’ve barely twittered in days and force myself to check in but usually end up closing tweetdeck without looking through the backlog or tweeting myself. This seems to be a natural part of the pregnancy process for me, a retraction of the ethereal threads of myself so that I can focus the energy where it really needs to be. On the baby. On Ivy. On Lauren. That’s really my world right now. Getting through each day and enjoying the children I have in the world while I grow the child in my womb.

The writing is still going to happen. Just not as quickly.

And tomorrow afternoon we get to find out when baby is due šŸ™‚


17 thoughts on “Ug, maybe I can’t do it”

  1. This sounds very familiar :). The main point of NaNo is to prove to yourself you can write a novel length work. You’ve done that, more than once, so whilst winning would be good, I don’t think you need it any more.

    1. that is really true. I don’t need it, I even said that at the outset! I’m not actually feeling at all bad about not winning NaNo, just a little sad that I’m not doing so well on my own writing goals right now – I’ll be back into it well and truly eventually tho!

  2. I agree with Anna on that particular subject, referring to the bulk of this post. You don’t need it. You already know that you can write novel length work. It’s a fun little game for some people, I suppose, but I didn’t participate in it simply because I write novels.

    1. Which is fair enough. I was umming and ahhing about participating in the first place. Had it not been for my massive news I’d still be on track I am sure! You kind of can’t ignore pregnancy though hehe well, at least my babies never let me šŸ˜‰

  3. Ditto Anna, MW, Merrilee. I wondered that myself actually with my effort. You’ve written a novel before, you don’t have problems writing a novel. Nano is just some cool fun for us. Focus on the important things for now, let the rest fall into place.

  4. Can’t comment on the writing a novel bit – though the others sound like they know what they are talking about.

    I do “get” the going inward bit – a pretty natural thing for some folks with a pregnancy and also there is a chance you are still processing the idea of it, the significance of it to life longer term – being a surprise and all, even if welcome and delight-full. Give yourself a break – you are not wonder woman, though you do a fabulous imitation of it most days LOL

    1. lol I do a damn good imitation most of the time! lol though I think the whole three kid thing, 2 under 2, will certainly challenge my wonder woman act.

      I don’t think there is any way to really get your head around a new baby until it arrives, I’m making comprehensive lists in my mind about the things that need doing before then though! Which is quite a distraction from the writing, that’s for sure.

  5. Probably won’t surprise you that I agree with Anna, MW, Merrilee, and Maui – šŸ™‚ I think working on it at a diligent-but-not-frantic pace will be more sustainable in the long run, and probably more enjoyable.

    1. More enjoyable in some ways, yes, sustainability is the important thing right now though I think. I just need to keep working at it slowly, so that I don’t get too out of touch with the story, and yet have plenty of time to indulge my first trimester-ness lol

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