The last few days have been a series of highs and lows, well, mostly lows if I am honest, brought about by sheer exhaustion, a baby who is biting while feeding, difficulties with sleep and 6 teeth coming through at once (another two started cutting in). I mean seriously, when am I going to catch a break? lol I can’t complain too much though, I am alive and well and thats something to be happy about.
After an incredibly productive Tuesday, I fell off the wagon again.
It’s just struck me that I didn’t blog about Tuesday! See, yesterday really was rough. I finished the short story I was working on, starting editing a different short story, and got to work on Chasing Ascension. All in all, a fantastic day – mostly because Lauren slept for THREE hours straight in her new bunk bed, and I had so much time to get things done.
Yesterday however… after an incredibly rough night, we both finally passed out just after noon. I had to get up after an hour, but she slept for a good two hours and last night was a whole lot smoother. We’re at a transition time and I just have to accept that getting her to bed is going to take a whole lot longer than it used to. She really needs to learn how to go to sleep by herself, but it feels like its going to be a long and painful process. I know it’s for the best in the long run though…
Anyways… I’m feeling somewhat more alive today, though less focused. Technically I’m not knocked out of NPI just yet because I wrote more than 1000 words on Tuesday and gained myself a day off (which I used yesterday). But I feel like my head is out of the game and I’m not sure whether I will continue with it. I will probably write today, but I don’t know… I still feel like I am working so far below where I’d like to be that it barely seems worth it.
When your words seem to be not as vibrant as you’d like them to be, for huge stretches on end, do you still forge ahead?
I tend to, but right now… oh it would be so easy not to.