*this post only relates to my novel writing, my short stories are coming along just fine ;-)*
Having decided to set Lifelines aside, I find myself presented with the next problem. One which has me feeling like I am floundering around.
If that’s not what I want to write – what is?
Do I have any novels that are good representatives of what I want to write? Or am I going to need to start fresh?
A quick run through the list leaves me with this: I have an unfinished trilogy of pure fantasy novels. I’m currently not sure how I feel about fantasy.
I have a YA supernatural type novel. I don’t think I want to write YA.
I have a space novel with young adult characters but which I don’t consider to be a YA novel. This one could be okay, but it does need work.
Novellas? I have two, ones a dark fiction tale that I really want to see reworked and published. That’s more in the vein of the writing I want to do. The other… it was a fun piece to write and it was more about just having a bit of a break from ‘serious’ writing.
I think I’m letting myself get too trapped by ‘genre’ when thinking about what I want to write. I would probably be better to say that I want to write thought provoking stories, stories that explore characters selves and how that relates to the situations that they are in, how that is changed by their circumstances and the choices they find themselves making.
Which could be just about anything.
I keep telling myself that I don’t need to think about this right now because I’m not novel writing, not for a fairly long time yet. I’m not even considering novel writing until next year, possibly not until the second half depending how this whole 3 child thing works out. There are too many unknowns in the equation – it could be much easier than I thought, or I could have no energy or drive to do anything other than be the best mother and wife I can be for awhile.
I’m going to put these thoughts in a box for now, but I really felt like I needed to get them out of my head first. It will sort itself out.
Possibly the most surprising thing about this post is how ambivalent I feel about ‘fantasy’ right now. I used to think that was all I would write, and now… well I just don’t know if I do want to write it. Traditional fantasy, sword and sorcery, whatever, has kind of lost its appeal for some reason.