I’m one of those people who tends to go without. Because it’s easier to go without, to not have wants, to not even consider spending money on frivolous things. I’ve always been like this, just ask my mother. I stopped asking for things a long time ago and when someone asks me what I want for a birthday or Christmas, I can honestly reply ‘I don’t know’ because I simply don’t spend much time thinking about it. So the answer is usually ‘book vouchers’ – to which my mother in law usually tells me I’m boring. Ah well, can’t please everyone.
Anyway. I’m getting off track. Recently I sold off some of the books that were sitting around. Old text books, other things I will never read again. I accumulated a little bit of money, which felt good. I told myself I’d save it up in case of emergency. And then I spent some on a rug for the lounge so that we wouldn’t be so cold over winter.
Next I said to myself that I would spend it on maternity bras, or new glasses, those things that I really need. Cause money is always tight, I can help out like this.
Until a small voice popped up and said ‘hey, why not check out how cheap netbooks are on the auction site these days?’.
So I did. And they were cheap. And a burning desire to spend money on something I didn’t need arose. I don’t tend to indulge in these desires. Well, normally I don’t have any money with which to, so it makes the choice easy.
The more I thought about it though, the more I realized that it was about time I spend money on myself, just for the sake of it. Why shouldn’t I have a small netbook? Why, I could write in bed. I could take it with me when we go out. I could read e-books on it. I could sit in the lounge over winter with my husband/the heater and not freeze my ass off in the office all by myself in order to get a little writing done.
Hubby agreed it was a good idea. He fully endorsed me spending my money on something for me. I think that was just as thrilling as making the decision – it’s nice to know he’s on my team. It can be easy to forget that I’ve self imposed this lack of spending, he has never once suggested that I take more than my share, and I’ve often heard him tell his mother that I need to spend more on myself.
So I did. And my netbook arrived today.
Lime green, to match the nappy bag 😉 Okay, so it was also the cheapest one I could get… haha the colour doesn’t matter so much to me as the fact it’s MINE and it’s FUN and I don’t have to share it with anyone else.
It’s teeny weeny, and I’ve yet to have much of a play on it (waiting for hubby to sort the wireless out on it later). It’s going to take a little bit of getting used to the small keyboard, but you know what? I’m not worried about that at all.
I’m looking forward to messing around with it, and having greater flexibility. I’m not putting anything on it that will detract from its functions: writing, reading (and a little bit of web browsing).
Look, it’s not even much bigger than the notebook I got for the Creativity Workshop! It weighs in at just over half a kilogram and it fits perfectly in one of the nappy bag pockets. Ah yes, I think this is going to be fun. And if it doesn’t work as well as I’d like? Hey I didn’t blow much money on it in the first place! Ivy is already eyeing it up – green is apparently her favourite colour now 😉