Slowing down – by choice, but also by force

I have to accept that I have well and truly hit that phase of pregnancy. My energy levels seem to fade rapidly from around lunch time so that by early evening all I want to do is sleep – last night I did just that. 630pm? I was fast asleep. Tonight? I’m going to try and stay up to watch a DVD with hubby, but there are no guarantees.

I can’t push anything right now because it’s not going to be good for me. I’m well aware that I am teetering on the brink of exhaustion and that is not the best way to bring a baby into the world. The goal over the next few weeks is sleep, lots of it, and plenty of rest to ensure a good physical/emotional/mental balance for baby’s arrival.

So I might not get stuff done. It will still be there later. The stories aren’t going anywhere, the occasional opportunity might be lost but there will always be others. I still have things I would like to get out of the way (like the crits sitting in my inbox) but I’m not going to be hard on myself about it.

I actually started this weeks story today and its coming along nicely. Slowly, but nicely. It’s pretty emotional and I really feel for Delaney – hurts like a bitch when someone wants something you can never give them, no matter how much you might like to. I’m not entirely sure where it’s going to leave her, or what it will mean for her relationship, so that will possibly be a surprise for both of us.

I’ve not really thought ahead to the next block of stories. It was meant to be working on action, but gee, so not where I’m at right now! lol It would certainly be a challenge to write action based stories right now though, so I will probably push ahead with that regardless. We will see.

I can’t believe how fast time seems to be ticking by, I kind of wish things would slow down for a week or so just so I can get my head together. At this point in my gestation last pregnancy, we were only two weeks away from Lauren’s arrival (not that we knew it at the time). Sitting here, I find it hard to imagine that in two weeks I could have a baby. I certainly don’t expect it to happen that early though, and other than the exhaustion (which is not simply a pregnancy thing, but rather a badly sleeping toddler and full on 5yr old combined with pregnancy thing) I’m actually feeling pretty good. I reckon I can make it to 40 weeks without being too grumpy about the state of affairs. I’d rather not go over (are you listening baby?) but I’m still cruising along right now.

Anyways, I better go and enjoy this brief respite the kids are giving me. I wrote this blog over about 10 sittings – Lauren seems to feel that if I am in the office for more than 2 minutes at a time then she’s missing out on mummy time πŸ˜‰


9 thoughts on “Slowing down – by choice, but also by force”

  1. Hey Cassie, just take it easy, allow yourself the time to rest. Don’t try and force anything this late in the game, you have to look after yourself first and foremost – even before your own children, because then you can be there for them.

    Sending you lots of *hugs* πŸ™‚

    1. Yeah, rest is the most important thing for me right now. Taking it as easy as I can πŸ™‚ Slowly but surely, I will get some things done. Just maybe not everything.

      Can’t be wonder-woman all the time πŸ˜‰

  2. “So I might not get stuff done. It will still be there later. The stories aren’t going anywhere, the occasional opportunity might be lost but there will always be others.”

    I really needed to remind myself of this and for some reason it sinks in better when I hear it from someone else.

    Do look after yourself and as you say, the stories aren’t going anywhere.

    1. Thanks Kerryn! Glad that was helpful – you’re right about things sinking in better when someone else says it from time to time.

  3. I do. not. miss. being. pregnant.

    In other news, I really need to take a page from you and study it. I’ve been floundering in my own life and exhaustion while getting so upset with myself for not producing more. Sometimes you just need to sit back & say “I can’t do it right now. I must rest so I can to it later.” Beautiful.

  4. Also. (Unrelated.) I just noticed that your blog is dated for your timezone. It makes sense; just something I never noticed. I had to look at my calendar three times to make sure I was still in June 2nd. :p

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