sorry this post took so long – hopefully now that things are more regular, updates will be too.
Longer than last time. More intense than last time, but oh so worth it!
Labour progressed slowly, with my contractions never getting more than about 3mins apart, but lasting around 2mins in length. Ivy was in bed early, but Lauren helped by rubbing my back and giving me lots of cuddles. I’ll probably always remember how she was running around me in circles giggling while I was on my hands and knees on the floor breathing through contractions lol she would get down and crawl between my arms and legs from time to time. Adorable girl.
We went up to hospital at 8pm, MW arrived at 820, broke my waters, and Natalie arrived at 905pm. By 11pm I was itching to get home, but paperwork took awhile. 1135pm found us at the McDonald’s drive thru (I felt so ‘white trash’ in the best way possible. Was ravenous! It tasted awesome). Home just before midnight 🙂
The Birth Date
One of my very best friends was born on the 29th of June, at 905pm. How amazing is it that my own child came into the world exactly 30 years after my best friend?
Can any one say ‘best birthday present ever’? I don’t think I can top that one 😉
We were sitting around, Hubby, Mum and I on Wednesday – Lauren napping in bed, baby in my mothers arms – thinking about names. Natalie popped into my head, and out of my mouth, and was liked by all. So easy! And so perfect, though I bet before having her I had looked at and dismissed it. It just suits her.
We still have no middle name… though are aiming for end of week to have it decided.
Easier than I thought it would be! I’m nursing Lauren on demand as well as Natalie and I have to say I really think it’s helped. People look at me a little odd but any time she wants a drink, or a hug, I give it to her. Natalie is little and has no problem sharing me, and I can do it, so why not?
Lauren has been so happy and settled with not an ounce of jealousy to be seen. I love that she is making the transition into middle child so smoothly, and I love that I can still give her everything she needs. I love sitting on the couch, Natalie in one arm, Lauren’s head gently resting on her lap, feeding the two of them. I feel incredibly connected, and like that connection binds the three of us.
I was worried how this would go, but its easier than I thought it would be so far. The big girls adore Natalie and I’m still finding plenty of time for cuddles with each of them. Natalie is pretty cruisy and things are working well! Everyone is happy so far.
Life, Sleep, Stuff
I’m doing well. Not sleeping a whole lot yet (we’re calling that a work in progress), but still feeling centered and calm. I’m enjoying Natalie immensely. I love feeling like our wee family is now complete and I am amazed that a week ago I was still pregnant and this beautiful child was inside me.
I fit back into half my old pants the day after giving birth, it’s almost as though I wasn’t pregnant at all, though I definitely have a baby, and boobs to rival Pam Anderson. I’m trying my best to eat enough to support feeding two children and myself, though it’s hard at times. I can get so busy doing everything that needs doing that I forget to eat. I’ll get it sorted though.
Amazingly, the house is actually pretty tidy, and the washing is up to date. I’m very grateful for the abundance of baby clothes we’ve had handed down though – I reckon I could go another 3 weeks without washing baby clothes and still have things for Natalie to wear.
I’ve been thinking about writing a lot over the last week. I even had a couple of spaces I set aside for it but they were stolen by various things (ie: loud eldest child waking sleeping middle child as she headed out the door with Daddy). I’m okay with that, and am well aware it’ll keep happening. At some point, time will free up and I can get stuck into things. In the meantime, it’s nice to think.
There had to be some right? Ivy is on school holiday, and she believes everyone in the house should do everything she wants and play by all her rules… yeah, not happening. She seems entirely incapable of seeing that other people have wants and needs which also need to be met. After all, she is the queen of the universe isn’t she? I guess thats 5yr olds for ya 😉
Lauren has hit that independent stage. She doesn’t want to wear a nappy (or clothes, actually… she has this new found love of standing naked in front of the fire guard, warming her back by the heater). She doesn’t want help, she wants to do everything by herself. It’s great, I fully support her growing up and wanting to do stuff for herself, but it can be a little frustrating when I really need her to do something.
Patience, Cassie, patience. I have that right? I shall keep breathing and know that things will be alright. I just need to stay calm. I just need to take each moment as it comes and breathe through the tension I feel at times. I adore my girls, they are wonderful, bright, amazing children and I can support them through these stages. It’s just a little harder to do so effectively when I’m tired.
Highlight of the week
This definitely has to have been 230am Wed morning when Lauren woke up and realized we had a baby. She fell instantly in love and I will never forget watching that. She kept telling me ‘baby, baby’ and then proceeded to point out baby’s hands, mouth, eyes, ears, nose etc. She was so excited that there was no way she could sleep, all she wanted to do was cuddle the baby – so that’s what we did. Natalie slept, but I picked her up from her cot and settled the three of us on the bed in a little huddle and Lauren proceeded to have her first baby cuddles with her sister for the next hour and a half. Yup, I was knackered, but she was in love and so was I.
Low light of the week
The first few nights, around 330ish, Lauren was waking up and not going back to sleep. Adamant that it was time to get up, that we should have more baby cuddles, that we should do anything but sleep. It was taxing (actually, she did the same last night as well… pest! lol), but I know I just have to push through these first few weeks. Things will settle. Lauren will sleep better, Natalie will sleep better, and eventually that means that I too will sleep better.
All in all, things are very good 🙂 better than I expected, easier than I expected. I hope it continues.
That doesn’t mean to say I’m not a little nervous about tomorrow. Hubby is back to work and I am home alone with three children.
Hope everyone is doing well! I’ve been trying to keep up with reading blogs even if I haven’t been commenting as much as I might normally.