I finished a story on Friday night. The first story I have started and completed since Natalie arrived – what a relief! I can still do it. And the feedback I got from Merrilee suggests that contrary to personal belief, my writing skills have not been devoured by baby brain.

I was worried for a while there.

Before she arrived I felt like I was getting closer to being the writer I wanted to be – that even the chapters for my novel (I should really give it a title of some kind so I can stop referring to it as the zombie baby novel, seeing as there are no zombie babies in it, technically) were being infused with the lessons that short stories have taught me. Of course, it all still needs work, but the simple truth is that babies change you. With each life added to your family, you become a slightly different version of the person you were before.

I am always a little nervous about how that will impact on my writing, despite loving my beautiful and completely adorable (for the most part) girls. I wouldn’t change being a mother for anything, and while I truly believe that the changes are always good in general, you don’t seem to get to choose how you are affected, you just kind of have to live with it. That no control thing? I admit, sometimes it makes me nervous.

Anyway, the point is – I can still do this. I have lots of stories in me, lots of great ideas. I’m once again at that point where I feel like writing off everything pre-Natalie, but I know there are some gems in there, they just need work, and I just need to knuckle down and get on with that work.

Before that, I’m going to rewrite/revise/polish the current story and get it out into the world. This is the new agenda. Pick a piece, work on it until it’s done, send it out, and repeat.

It’s a great theory (one I’m pinching off Merrilee in fact), hopefully I can put it into practice!


14 thoughts on “Whew”

  1. great news! It is a relief, isn’t it? babies do change us….a lot. I think all that growth is reflected in our work. I was petrified I would hate all I has written pre-baby, but it’s ok. I too recently completed a 700 word stand alone, and while rusty i was pleased :0
    keep at it!

  2. That is fabulous news! Well done! I know exactly what you mean about wondering if you’ll feel like the writer you want to be/felt you were. Hurrah for getting the words out.

  3. Congrats on getting back into the flow. I wish you success on the rewrite/revise/polish and getting it out there.

    I loved your insight on the way motherhood forms us. But, a heads-up here, not only do you change with each child’s birth, you change with each child’s leaving the nest too.

    May all your changes be positive ones.

    1. Thank you Linda. Funnily enough, my husband and I were talking about how strange life will be when the kids have left home. It is so very hard to imagine the shape our days will take when they aren’t being primarily devoted to parenting.

  4. Yes, what Linda said. It’s been a long time since there was a new baby in my house, and a long time till the next one, I hope. But you never forget their sweet smell or the way their fingers feel, curling around yours. Getting misty, now. Hush!

    Glad to know that you are back in the swing of writing, and I love your program: pick something, finish it, send it out! That is definitely a great way to go.

    1. Thanks Texanne šŸ™‚ I love the way any baby has the ability to bring back all those early memories in such vivid detail. Babies are such a blessing.

  5. Congrats! That must be a great feeling. And also… hats off to you for being able to prioritize your life and your writing while dealing with little ones new and ‘old’.

    Good luck with the piece!

    1. Thank you Aurora. Life is a balancing act, whether you have kids or not – I think if something is important to you, you’ll find time for it though, even if it takes several attempts before you get the formula right.

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