The writing habit, that is.
We all know I’ve fallen off the wagon a few times. We all know that I have been struggling to claim some time for me and bring back a dose of daily words since the wonderful and blessing filled arrival of Natalie.
I’ve made plans, and set goals and this last lot? I was sure they were going to work. I was feeling great about them. And then I got sick and just couldn’t do it. I was even seriously considering dropping out of October’s Novel Push Initiative. I felt like such a failure when it came to my writing that I just didn’t want to fight against time any more.
Then, Merrilee bashed me around the head, October began and I wrote.
Yes folks, you heard me right. I wrote. Despite the raging headache and the house full of children. I found a ten minute chunk in the day (actually, it was more like an 8 minute chunk and then another 8 several minutes after – I was interrupted by door-knockers. Their timing always sucks) and got some words down.
I changed my daily goal from 20 minutes to 10, because right now all that really matters is that I form the habit – that I reconnect with my writer self on a daily basis. That is the hard part. And it is hard – like changing your diet so that you’re eating only the good stuff, or starting a new exercise programme. Any habit is hard work initially, but once you push through that, you’re set.
And I want to be there again. I want it to be easy. I fondly remember the days I would write 1,500 words a day every single day (even while on holiday!). It would only take me a half hour or so and I could switch into writers mode at the drop of a hat. I know I can’t write that much now, but writing every day means that my progress will be visible and I can stop feeling like I’m stuck in a rut.
I have two flash fiction pieces in the works at the moment. Well, one that I’m going to finish, the other is being morphed into probably a short story. I want to finish the flash off and then get stuck back into Skaazi’s story. I’m going back to my last set of goals and making Friday my submission day. It’s kind of the worst possible day to submit something (who checks email over the weekend??), but it will be a positive way for me to go into the weekend and give me a deadline to work to.
I’m still not 100% better, but I should be sometime in the next week.
I CAN do this. And I will.