I’ve been thinking about the first prompt all day:
December 1 One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
(Author: Gwen Bell)
One word isn’t a lot, but I’ve chosen ‘survival’ as mine. A whole lot of my time and energy this year has been spent on just that. I started out the year sleep deprived, pregnant, with a toddler and another child starting school – between those learning curves, some behavioral issues, adding a newborn into the mix, still being sleep deprived and trying desperately not to lose myself, I’m seeing out the year feeling a lot like I did nothing but manage to survive.
I know this isn’t giving myself enough credit. I had my first short stories published this year despite all that, have started getting some personal rejections in the mix, have learned a lot about writing, parenting, life and myself. Have consciously done things to try and improve the situation. But it has all been hard work, and at times, I wanted nothing more than to give it all away, just lose myself to a bunch of titles because there didn’t feel like there was enough energy to be anything other than mother, wife, house cleaner – and not even those on some days.
Which brings us to 2011, and my hopes for it. I’ve opted to go by the virtues, and chosen one which I think encompasses most of what I would like 2011 to be about.
Being purposeful is having a clear focus. Begin with a vision for what you want to accomplish, and concentrate on your goals. Do one thing at a time, without scattering your energies. Some people let things happen. When you are purposeful, you make things happen.
I reacted for the most part in 2010, so I want 2011 to be about creating change myself, about setting goals and taking the steps I need to achieve them. I want to be filled with purpose in all aspects of my life, to be striving towards things, rather than just trying to make it through the year, hoping that I’ll have enough energy to get a few things done. For me, this also means being present in each moment that is presented to me – being really with my children when I am parenting, being an active partner when I have time with my husband, being focused on my writing or work when it’s time for those things, and so on.
There are a lot of things I want for 2011. Lots of goals. It’s going to be an amazing year.