December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)
I’ve let go of a lot of things this year, or at least tried to. Some of the people in my life were causing me more stress than it was worth, and I’ve had to step back from them. It’s not that I don’t care – because I do, very much – it’s just that we get into this loop where I give support, and advice (that they ask for), and then they turn around and ignore it, choose to stay in their not pleasant situations, do nothing about the negative things in their lives. At some point, you just have to detach yourself from that. So I did.
I let go of a lot of guilt: over not getting the dishes done, over not getting enough writing done, over the house being messy, or there being piles of dishes/washing to do. I am not wonder woman, though I am wonderful. There are simply not enough hours in a day and feeling guilty about those things isn’t helping the situation at all.
I let go of my need to achieve. It was only adding to my guilt. Letting this go was probably the hardest, in that it’s ingrained in me to want to do more, to do better, to do everything. I still want to get things done, but I’m okay when I don’t. This has freed me up to enjoy my family more than I have at times. Of course I always love and adore them, but sometimes, I feel like I should be doing more, like being a full time mum isn’t as worthwhile as other things I might be doing (which, I know, is ridiculous – being a mum is the most amazing thing in the world and hard work at times).
Anyways, I’ve let go of a lot this year, or tried. Some areas still need working on, but that’s life right?