It’s not fair!!!

All around me fellow writers are getting things published, getting acceptances letters, having partials and fulls requested, hearing fantastic, amazing, inspiring and motivational things back from beta readers. And what am I getting? Nothing but rejections.

R-E-J-E-C-T-I-O-N-S. Lots of them, because I’ve been a busy critter, sending out stories left right and centre. Regrouping when I get a ‘thanks, but no thanks’, and submitting them again.

And I’m not bitter about this. It’s just how things go sometimes. I’m setting my sights high – I know very well I could target lesser markets and get stories printed, but I’m working my way down the food chain. You just never know when you might get lucky.

However, I am feeling a little left behind. I can feel this thing inside me. Growing, stretching, pushing against my skin. It’s not an idea or a story, a plot or character. It’s that want to be where the others are. The desire for a novel. For a great novel. One that’s at least through it’s first draft stage, but still shiny and holding so much potential that I almost can’t breathe.

It’s not jealousy though folks. I am thrilled for all of these writer friends. They deserve to be getting the feedback they’re receiving. I WANT them to succeed. I just wish that I was in that place too, sharing in the buzz instead of sitting here, wanting it.

I know one day I’ll have the time to get back into a novel. I’ll have that great idea, that rush, that drive. Just not today.

However, I am going to eat some easter chocolate and get to work on the third scene of the novella. It may not be as big and bright and shiny as a novel, but it’s pretty darn fun place to hang out 😉


18 thoughts on “It’s not fair!!!”

  1. Cassie, I know exactly what you mean. Everyone else is having success, but where is mine! I know that one day you will get the success you deserve, your writing is fantastic! Your patience will be rewarded when you least expect it!

    Keep up the good work hun!

  2. Oh, I so know the feeling. I don’t think it’s possible to be a writer and never feel it. I often wonder if we ever feel satisfied with where we are, no matter how much other people might look at it and think you’re in a great place. Okay, well, maybe if you were #1 on the NYT bestseller list, maybe then…but maybe not. Writing is definitely a tough career!

    1. It is, it is. And there is always someone on the ladder above you. I think it’s more my frustration that I simply don’t have the time and energy, but I have the want. Oh I have the want so bad!

  3. I know that feeling well! *hugs* Your a fantastic write cassie and soon you WILL be discovered and it will be onwards and upwards.

  4. You are right; writing is like life; not fair. I fooled around with my book a decade before it got published. After Lord knows how many revisions, it finally made it.

    One time I was at weekend show, and another writer asked how many books I sold. The number was 120, which is a lot for me.

    He said, “That’s not fair. I only sold eighty.”

    I replied, “Look man, it’s all relative. Grisham sells more books before he gets up to pee every morning than what you and I will sell in a lifetime, so we might as well just have fun.”

    Continue the journey, and have fun. I’m old. My guess is you are young. It’ll get there.

    Dr. B, author, “The Mandolin Case”

    1. lol, so true, Dr. B. I am frequently telling my eldest that life isn’t fair. Better to accept that and be happy anyway. At least it always gives you something to aspire to 😉

  5. I’m not sure anyone creative and ambitious can free themselves of this envy!

    My new non-fiction book is out last week and getting lots of media attention — which I know is making some people envious. But….but….I am still envious of those getting better reviews from bigger places, hitting the best-seller list, etc…

    We are all on the ladder of success somewhere. Just gotta keep climbing.


    1. We do indeed! Thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment 🙂 In general, I am satisfied with my own progression. I just wish I had the time and energy to move on to bigger things.
      Good luck with your book!

  6. Oh, Cassie–

    I could have written this post myself, so you know I feel for you and support you in your quest. This is not a race. It’s more like a lot of people milling around. Some find the buffet table early in the party, while others prefer to look at the art on the walls for a while before picking up a plate.

    It’s a huge buffet–plenty for all. And it smells heavenly. 🙂

    You’ll get there. And I’m thinking that the shorter works we used to call “novellas” are going to be hot properties in the e-pub world. Have fun with it. :)TX

    1. Texanne, I agree. I think novellas are making a come back as they are nice quick reads, and with electronic books, you can’t go wrong.

      Also agree with you on the buffet front 😉 It’s definitely not a race, just sometimes it would be nice to skip the line, because my word, the food smells divine.

  7. good luck with your work. once your work finds the right publisher it’ll all click. I visited this post because I’m interested in novellas and how they can be condensed into 3 line form

    1. Hey John, welcome and thanks for stopping by to comment. I hadn’t heard of shortening novellas into three lines, but have taken a look at your blog to learn more.

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