Because I am one of those people who gets all nervous about stuff and goes back and forth and pikes out on occasion, I decided to post tomorrow’s offering today.
I was killing time between getting some groceries and picking up my youngest kids from a friends house, so I parked up at the lookout above their house and enjoyed the wind and rain. And then I thought. Hey! It’s QUIET. Let’s make a video! No prep, no makeup, no filters, no script, no bloody idea what I was doing…
So here it is. One take, spur of the moment.
If you have any suggestions or advice (or requests!), then please do let me know 🙂 I am super noob at this. My eldest has the following to say: turn your phone the other way around! Make lots of videos about cats. POST MORE. Make her (my daughter) famous.
For a long time now I have relied solely on a standing desk. After a really bad run of sciatica I basically couldn’t sit down or I would induce pain. I was either standing or lying. It was hard adjusting, my legs ached for a few weeks, but I grew to love my standing desk. It’s beautiful, and wonderful, and helped me sort my back out.
Recently, I’ve had an urge to sit. And not at the dining table which is always covered in books and projects and other stray items. I started hunting for a desk, and my eldest generously suggested I take back my lovely old queen anne dresser and use that – when asked what she would do with her clothes she admitted that she keeps them on the floor, and the only things in her drawers are things she doesn’t like wearing (don’t worry, I DID get her drawers, but I can’t promise she will use them 😉 )
Today I picked up an office chair and had my first chance to sit down at my own desk in ages. And it was good. I even finished a short story! It’s been in the works for a while – quite the challenging piece. It’s going to need some work, but I’m looking forward to focusing on something else for the next week or so.
And in the meantime, this is one happy writer 🙂 I love this addition to my space. While the mirrors are a tad distracting, I’m not sure I have the heart to remove them – this dresser belonged to my Great Aunt May, and has been a cherished belonging of mine for about 20 years now. I may just cover chunks of it with inspiration… What do you think?
Seeing as February is the month of love (well, for some people, I’m not really a Valentines person, though I do love celebrating my wedding anniversary which is this month!), I thought it would be the perfect time to bring a little gratitude and joy to my blog. I’m trying to incorporate this more into my life and have definitely noticed that it’s easier to be grateful for things the more that I do it – even when life isn’t so great. If you can reach for one thing and feel some genuine gratitude for it, then the world looks like a nicer place.
In saying that, sometimes I’m just grateful for coffee. Like, really grateful. Or chocolate. Where the hell would I be without coffee and chocolate?
Anyway, friend and fellow author, Meryl Stenhouse, suggested I jump aboard her love train this month (okay, that might sound slightly wrong… it’s too hot, I can’t think straight), and I thought, yeah, why not? And then I thought, YES, let’s rock this shit!
So here I am. And what are we going to talk about today? I had hoped to get a video done for you, but that ain’t happening. I’m suffering some pretty major fatigue right now (I’m so grateful for the afternoon nap I got to have yesterday) so that will have to wait. I’m falling back on an old love.
Today, I am in love with words. Well, to be honest, I’m in love with them most of the time, but today, this week, more than normal. You see, I have been struggling hard to re-form my writing habit, but I’ve written something every day for a week now and that feels pretty bloody awesome. While the words don’t feel AMAZING, and I don’t think the story is going to blow anyone’s mind, I am PUTTING WORDS ON THE PAGE, and that in itself is an awesome thing. Not always an easy thing, but an awesome thing.
Because if you love something, you should do it. You should bathe yourself in that thing and just, you know, roll around, lounge in it, as much as you can. Because even if you’re not feeling fabulous, doing that thing? Finding your bliss? Well, it helps. It turns out that if I’m not writing on the regular, I don’t feel like a real person anymore. This is my thing.
Find your thing. And then do your thing. Love it hard, and don’t let anyone, or anything, stop you from enjoying it.
After my last post, I made some changes – the biggest of these was having an action plan. Plans are so very important. They give you steps to follow even when you don’t feel like doing much. They help you feel pro-active and in control. I’m a big fan of plans, and eternally grateful to my good friend Meryl Stenhouse for helping me to come up with this one.
As a result of this plan, I am already seeing an improvement in my mood – see, just having a plan helps! I didn’t even wait til today to get writing! I started on Friday, with just 300 words. It doesn’t sound like a lot, but I can tell you this: I’d rather write even 300 words than nothing. It’s an achievable goal, even on the worst of days, and a jumping off point on the good ones. When I told myself I needed to get back into the habit of writing, I gave myself no goal, and so I flailed. I expected a lot, but never gave myself a chance to work up to it. Not only is 300 words totally doable, but if I can get them done before lunch it means I have heaps of time to get other things done.
Moderation. Balance. I’ve struggled with those things so for long, but I think this time I might actually be coming at it the right way. I’m writing. I’m exercising. I’m taking care of myself. I’m reading books. And I’m spending lots of quality time with my family – and not feeling frustrated, because I am actually fitting everything in!
I went to the Dr this morning, and she supports me in reducing my medication. We’re taking it slowly, and I’ll check back in with her in a month to see how I’m doing. I’m not so nervous about it now, because I think this is the right call (and I’m totally okay if it’s not. This is a journey, and I know it takes time and nothing is certain). I feel really good though, and I hope that at some point in the future I won’t need the meds. If I do, that’s fine, but if I don’t, then that’s cool too. I’m glad I tried them out, because they helped me through a rough patch, and helped me to find myself again.
Anyway, this is kind of all over the place, sorry! To sum up, I have a good feeling about February. I’ll be adding a second post to the week, so you can expect a ‘Friday, I’m in love…’ post in a few days time, on, you know, Friday. Looking forward to sharing with you some of the awesome things, which will help keep me feeling grateful 🙂
There are so many stories running through my head. So many. Not just mine, but all the stories by authors I have been editing recently as well – a huge range: contemporary, thriller, mystery, MG, science fiction. In fact, I’ve taken about a week off from editing in general just to try and dull the clatter in my brain.
Well, editing other than my own, anyway.
Final edits on Burn are now complete and the MS is off with the proofreader. I’m both nervous and excited to bring it to the world – as pure fantasy, it’s quite different to In The Spirit. There is none of the lightness and laughter that my first release had. The characters are completely different, and where Alyssa is young, a bit of a slob and maybe a tad too fond of wine, Carmel is old and weary, and never had any kind of freedom or joy in her youth. I worry that readers of one won’t like the other, but then I have to remind myself that books are allowed to have different readers, and I can trust people to read blurbs and samples if they aren’t sure. It’s not my job to stress out about it, only my job to make sure I’m telling the best stories I can – regardless of the genre.
I’ve headed straight into what will hopefully be my last major revisions on The Way The Sky Curves. I’m enjoying it so much that I’ve just loaded Shell and Bone onto my Kindle so I can start reading through and making notes. I can’t believe I am THREE books deep in this series already, with just two left to write. It’s actually kind of bizarre. I’m going to be starting planning on the last two very soon – I know how it’s all going to end though!!! I’ve never seen that end picture until recently and I can’t wait to write it!
Alongside all of this are thoughts of the other book I want to publish this year. Sun-Touched is one of my favourites, and will be the first full length novel I bring out. It’s different again from the world of Kotahi Bay, and Burn. Science fiction set on a relatively newly colonized planet. I am itching to get back to Madea and do my final edits on that book. Oh, it’s going to be so good!
So, there are all the things going on right now. I’m going to need to find some new tactics for keeping the noise in my head under control. Maybe not editing four books back to back is a good idea, just for starters 😉