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Long time, no blog

After I tweaked my website a few months back the blog kind of disappeared and I bought into that whole ‘blogging is dead’ thing. But I kept thinking about it, and the thoughts niggled in the back of my mind.

I have no idea if you missed me or not, but I missed this, so I’m back!

I’d like to tell you lots of wonderful news, but I don’t have any. I’d love to say I’ve been crazy-busy getting my next book ready for you, but I can’t even say that either. Life has been full and busy but it’s not leaving me with a lot of space for writing. This space seems to get increasingly small the closer we get to LexiCon.

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For those that might not know (because I haven’t been talking about it a whole lot on here) I’m the co-chair of this year’s National Science Fiction and Fantasy convention – and it’s happening in just a few weeks now! OMG I have convention packs to make, and a million things to organize, including many things to feel pre-emptively anxious about, such as pronouncing things correctly, speaking in front of a hundred and fifty or so people (insert pukey face here), and meeting best-selling, award-winning author Seanan McGuire (I keep trying to tell myself she’s just a person, but she’s an incredibly COOL person and I’m bound to say stupid things or be incoherent due to the aforementioned stress and panic).

I’m so grateful that we have some awesome people on our ConCom to make the task less daunting, most of us had very little experience going in but *knocks on wood* it all seems to be coming together quite nicely. Fifteen days til I head to Taupo…

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End of April, start of May – stars for writing, hearts for not being awful to myself

Just so you don’t think I’ve been completely flakey, I HAVE been doing some work. It’s just that the amount of said work is shrinking.

I had really high hopes of getting the nearly final draft of Kotahi Bay #2 done before Convention, but I want to produce quality and with my brain the way it is right now I just can’t guarantee it.

Here is photographic evidence (of the work, not my mushy brain).

 

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That thing where…

You realize that you’ve actually written quite a lot of sex type stuff in your work and it suddenly hits you that when you publish those stories, people will actually (hopefully) READ them and then you might at some point have to look some of those people in the eye from time to time.

Yeah…

It’s a funny thing, really, because I have never stopped to think about this before. I am pretty sure that none of my published stories have tapped into the ‘romance’ side of my writing, though I have written a lot of sexual elements, relationships, and whatnot. I’ve handed them out to beta readers without a second thought. Yet for some reason today when a friend text me a comment about something I’d totally forgotten I’d written (and giggled with endlessly about on gchat with her at the time), it struck me that this will all be out in the open at some point.

O.M.G. I have this vision of me choreographing sex acts on stage while an audience watches…I think I’m more nervous than those performing the act.

And to think I’ve been advising others who write romance to just ignore the people who raise eyebrows at them* – now it’s me having a mini panic over it! It really is funny how things can hit you all of a sudden, and I guess, as I make the long walk towards publishing, I’ll have many more of these moments and realizations.

For now I will try not to think about the general public reading sex scenes that I’ve written. I guess it can’t be any worse than them reading murder, torture, or other expressions of violence… right?

*though I do stand by that – write what you love and if you enjoy writing the racy stuff then good for you! I shall get over my nerves soon enough.