Turning off

I’ve been walking the line of exhaustion for a fairly long time now, trying my hardest to stay balanced, to stay on top of everything despite the sleep deprivation. For the most part, I think I’ve been doing a pretty good job, though the last few days of this work week I’ve slipped a few times and those small mistakes threatened to pull me into a spiral of self doubt and despair.

Not really the best place to be – especially while I have so much work to do!

So I took the weekend off. I was up to date on pretty much everything I should have been. Nothing pressing was waiting for me and I just needed to back off. Tell myself that things could wait. My computer was turned off more than on this weekend, and that’s very uncommon for me. I love being able to walk past and see whats going on – emails, tweets, facebook updates. But more often these days I’m shutting all those windows and focusing on just one or two things at a time. The things that are important: my writing, my proof reading, the anthology.

Multi-tasking is a wonderful thing, and I am FABULOUS at it, but there really is something to be said for giving just one thing your attention.

Mostly, this weekend these ones had my attention:

And Miss Ivy of course – though at this point in the day she was having some quiet time away from her noisy, pesky little sisters. Big girls need a break from little hands from time to time. (Oh, Ivy, if only I could shut myself in my room for some peace and quiet! Enjoy it while you can 😉 lol.)

It was lovely chilling out in our little sheet tent in the backyard. Must make the most of these sunny, but not too hot, days while they last.



Spring is certainly here, and I couldn’t be happier. There is something about this change of season which makes me feel so positive and full of life again – like I really can crack out of this little shell I’ve been living in and get into the world.

I’ve been trying, so hard, to do that. But all the positive thoughts in the world, all the good intentions, sometimes aren’t enough. I’ve been well aware that I need to change the pattern of our day, and the warm weather and sunshine certainly helps kick start me.

So this morning we spent a good hour out the front, kicking and throwing the ball around. Chasing each other, pulling a few weeds out of the garden. We had a picnic lunch on the deck and then played on the swing for awhile and now Lauren and Natalie are both napping, which means I can get a little writing done.

I love it!

Though, settling in to the writing seems to be taking me a little while – my head is full of plans for the garden, and thoughts on what I can sell so that we can finally afford to fence the front yard and make it totally child safe. I am looking forward, immensely, to spending copious amounts of time outdoors and making the most of the weather, the children, and my life.

Eventually, I’ll get some kind of routine in place, one that fits everything in to it. In the meantime, I’m just taking it a day at a time, and being happy with all the things I DO manage to fit in, rather than getting hung up on the things I don’t. Life in general is happier and more productive when you look for the positives I find.

Better get some words down before I run out of time. Hope you are all enjoying your lives too 🙂